ABOUT ME.
DEAR CARETAKER!
I think I feel you. You have a big heart, you care so much. Most people think you’re under control of juggling work, family and your entrusted ones. Making things work out smoothly and without much ado.
In fact many people come to you, cause you always have a free space and an "open ear" when someone needs your help and support. Everyone around you sees you as the confident caring doer and thinks you’re happy.
But you feel probably pretty exhausted. And I’m not talking about the fulfilled-fall-asleep-after-contributing-and-dedicating-meaningfull-work exhaustedness, but the kind of overwhelmed and depleted exhaustion that comes with the eagerness to please everyone around you, to perfect your responsibilities, to push you to do and be better, the feigning and proving you still got everything under control.
EAGER TO PLEASE, PERFECTING, PROVING, PUSHING, FEIGNING.
These caretakers do this because they don't want to feel all these painful, overwhelming, unbearable, negative emotions...
inadequate
anxious
helpless
disappointed
lonely
restless
sad
disheartened
guilty
unworthy
rejected
frustrated
hurt
tense
apathetic
ashamed
down
fatigued
powerless
out of control
insecure
never enough
They try and try to shove these negative-overwhelming consuming emotions off the cliff. They try and try to keep up the facade that they are ok, holding it all together. To not get distracted by them, that they can't give up the fight. The feigning that all is still under control.
And when they feel the pain of these emotions, they feel crappy and miserable, rejected, not good enough, unworthy. And because they don't want to feel this way, they try EVERYTHING to fight these negative emotions.
ignoring
pleasing
numbing
fighting
avoiding
hiding
perfecting
battling
escaping
pretending
masking
pushing hard
proving
distracting
I help caretakers decipher their emotions' messages, and stop the endless conflict they're having with themselves.
Hi, I’m Mirjam Blank and I can do this because what I described above is the caretaker I used to be. I know what it's like because I have tried everything to push my negative emotions off the cliff and to eliminate them. I had spent my entire life being eager to please, perfect, push and prove, so that I wouldn't have to feel this pain. But I got nowhere near getting rid of them or feeling better. It only pushed me deeper into the shadow kingdom.
It was time I stopped battling myself!
It was time I gave my heart a place in my life!
ONCE YOU REACH THE TIP OF THE HORN, IT'S REALLY HARD TO GET OUT AGAIN.
WHEN IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE...
to get out of the shadow kingdom, you see light on the horizon. I knew that there were other caretakers out there just like me, who were looking for a way out. They for sure didn't have the same story as I did, but I was sure as sh*t that they had been through their own version of h*ll and were facing their own overwhelming emotions and shadow self just like I had.
If you’re still reading and this is you, I want you to know there is a way out, AND to feel empowered again, cause things are indeed in your hands!
It all starts with embracing and deciphering your hearts' messages to you.
Don't kill the messengers!
People-pleasing syndrome, perfecting, proving, pushing hard, distracting, ignoring, numbing, feigning, masking are all tactics and ways to avoid or kill the messengers.
And sometimes it’s the exact opposite of what we know and do, to find the key to unfold the root cause of what’s keeping you in the shadow kingdom.
But once you give your heart a place and decode its messages to you, you can break the vicious cycle, and life will take turns beyond everything that you've ever imagined possible!
OH, IF YOU WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT ME ...
I’m an introvert but most often mixed up with being an extrovert. I’m folksy and all talksy, don’t get me wrong, but you’ll have to keep searching late at night for me, cause probably I’m the one who’s gonna leave the party first. Don’t hate me for it! I simply need and enjoy a lot of ME time. YES! I can take care of myself now without feeling guilty and full of shame.
The sight of seafood gives me goosebumps and lets my hair stand up on end. It feels like the tentacles are still moving and those little eyes are glaring at me. I’ve tried, thanks, but no thanks!
Looking for me? You’ll probably find me covered in dirt from the stable or from mocking out, my horse Jumper will greet ya with a lap up, and I’ll unfailingly offer ya to go on an adventure hike together — oh yeah now it's a horse I'm taking care of!
I'm a business graduate (University of Applied Sciences) with specialization in marketing and communications and worked for years in the advertising industry which included creating award winning and fancy big campaigns.
Want to know all my legit and smarty-pants credentials in health promotion? I volunteered many years for the Red Cross Germany and the Malteser Aid Organisation in Germany as a trained paramedic and visiting and therapy dog handler. I was a board member for a non-profit therapeutic riding association in Austria, and I’m a certified and fully qualified Yuan Qigong I Ren Xue trainer and life coach (Jay Shetty certification school). I am qualified in and work with modalities that are based on disciplines belonging to the Chinese wisdom culture, including Daoism, Buddhism, Confucianism, Qigong, the martial arts and Traditional Chinese Medicine.
